I decided…

Complaining/whining get me no where especially when I ain’t cute 😦 so half the time people don’t show me much sympathy, and the things I cared about may not be what they care about as well. So I guess I shall be a better person from now on (I am always nice just that I am KP abit) and sulk lesser and don’t give so many opinions. If you guys like this, then I abide by it lor :), if u like that, then I go with the flow lor, Im tired of being upset and sulky.

We all have different viewpoints, just like some say is half full some say half empty, I am sick of people pretending to like what I suggested and then KPKB later on.

And I don’t wanna blog here for the time being or maybe not anymore.

Damn farking bored

I spent my weekend rolling on the bed, until I got a headache and I really feel like a paralyzed patient.

Boring and waste time and I m short of a 4th leg for mj.

I am dying for boredom.

Sian

Numbed

Merry Christmas to all! Did you guys have a gd christmas and a wonderful time feasting and boozing?

Mine was quiet, just dinner at sixth ave and crashing at friends’ house, wasn’t in the festive mood, it felt just like any other day but I do appreciate the looonnnggg weekend and I felt such a bum now. Is gonna be another 3days of wrk before the long weekend is here again. 🙂

You know, I don’t know who I can trust nowadays, I don’t know what I believe in now, what went wrong? Maybe is me, but I don’t feel like socialising nowadays, I don’t feel like talking to anyone but I do like talking to myself in the head, sometimes I wish people can just leave me alone but at times, when I am in e car, looking through my phone book trying to find someone to call and talk, I got lost cause I don’t know who I can call and talk and at the end of the day, I reached home feeling like a total loser.

Was it love? Commitment? Obligation? Responsibility?

I can’t feel me.

And for a moment, I thought I was single

I think I have a bf whose job is worse than flying, at least when they are on standby, they are mentally prepared that they might be activated, but my bf jus went office  ytd, and last min decision, urgent trip to Jakarta, and suddenly he disappeared off, I still can’t grasp on what is happening and there he flew off. To make things worse, flights back on Thurs are on waitlist, the next available confirmed flight is on Fri evening, I doubt the waitlist seats can be confirmed since Fri is public holiday, every one rushing to come back, oh well!!! I guess maybe I will have 1 more night of sleeping better without him around.

Been 5 days since I got my car, drove my boss and colleague for lunch and they are so worried for my safety since they said I am a reckless driver, oppss.. But it really make work a whole lot easier, I can get to my destination faster without any fear of rain. But having a car mean higher expenses or any unexpected emergency expenses, I guess now with such, I have to keep my purse string tight.

I am meeting my girlfriend tonight for gossip cum dinner session, she always picked me up in the past, drove me here and there, so now is pay back time.

Guys, is 2 more working days to the long weeeeeeekkkkkendddd, Cheers 🙂 but well I guess it doesn’t make much of a difference for me. Sighs.

My new ride is finally here

Weeee…I finally got my car on 20th Nov, drove bb out on Fri and Sat night for dinner and movie [paranormal activity + 2012], paranormal activity is a total crap can, maybe I had too much expectations on it since I heard good reviews saying is 2009 most scariest movie and I was like totally bored to death, but 2012 made up for it, it was an awesome show.

And only 2 days of driving, I got my first $30 summon and is not my fault, so bb had to pay, haha…I guess this shut him up next time where to park.

When the man is not around

Is another 75 hrs to seeing my bb, he is away on biz trip and I hope he comes back with good loots for me 🙂 As usual, when he is not around, no one for me to pester and irritated but I can go on with my mj game with my girls in another 2hrs time, shopping again tml (I hv been shopping since Sat and can’t seem to stop), pubbing on Fri and the big event on Sat- hens night!!!!! But the most happiest is that is only 2nd week and I already hit my sales quota, weeee

🙂

What is love

So what is right and what is wrong,
gimme a sign,
Tell me what is love?

Is it only words?
Or is it the way,that we’re feeling now?
If love is a game, I’m playing all my cards.
What is love?

What about feeling?
What about all the things that make life worth living?
What about faith?
What about trust?
And tell me baby…what about us?
Or is there us?

Busy week

Dear All,

Apologies for the lack of posts for so long, busy with friends, work and bb, now that he went back for reservist for 1week, finally have some private and personal time for my own, so yeah! for those who recieve my calls, I am so busy keeping up with my social life.

The whole of last week kept me excited for a lil while, cause finally bb & I booked our Taiwan tickets on the Jetstar 1 for 1 sale and is only $212 per pax. Cheapppppppp lor!!!!! but is a looonggggg loonnggg wait to May 2010 😦

Friends in FB have been posting up pictures of their proposal, and I am so happy for them and very naturally they will turn to me and asked when is my turn? I smiled because there isn’t any plan. Let fate decided. I don’t care about any norms of whateva shit that female should marry early and have kids early as well. Lets just put it this way, for every quarrels and break ups that I personally went through or had seen, the belief in marriage is fading. No doubt, the preparations and going through it is tiring but fun but what lies next? BIG RESPONSIBILITY!!!! which I don’t think that I am up to it. Sometimes, I can’t really fathom on whether is it because I can’t trust marriage, can’t trust myself or can’t trust men. If one day you were to leave me, what will happened? How would I feel? Sad, angry, relief? I can’t place where is my stand? Maybe after everything that had happened in the past, I take relationship with a pinch of salt now.

Is Mid week and 2 more days to pay day. Hoooo!! So happy and I can dance my way to Gucci to buy my bag and Buttering on Fri. Bring it on, baby 🙂

60 more hrs to seeing you.

Utterly disappointing

As quoted, “u are the same as her!” No matter is you, him or whoever, I am always others spare tyre and doesn’t matter how much I put in, is either I am just a substandard or equally on par with the previous bad one. Since I m as bad as what they said, they should be out looking for an even better one, am I right?

Whatever you have said to me that night make me utterly disappointed in you, you think likewise of me and have been feeling so all along.

I must have been the greatest fool.First it was that, now this, what next? I hate compared to, not once but few occasions.

I am left speechless.

I felt sick, literally.

When thinking are at different stair of levels, it make matters difficult to see whose right, whose wrong.

It is a test, at least for me.