My tots

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I just came back from a 3D2N course, anyway the contents are supposed to be confidential, one need to be mentally strong in order to keep it going, the humiliation, the tears, the shouting, the begging etc. I must say it did kind of made me stop and think,

– Have we ever think from the shoes of others,

– Have we ever appreciate the efforts our parents put in to keep this family running,

– Have we ever say thank and be grateful for what our significant other had done for us?

People from all walks of life attended this course, from successful ple, to those who are still lost and can’t find their direction, to ex convicts to those who have problems but never really get to let it go etc.

But at the end of the day, I still strongly believe that, if you really have a problem buried deep in your heart and is hurting you so much, is still advisable to consult a shrunk and learn to let it go. I see so many people crying especially when they are asked to talk about their past experiences, I guess they never learn to let it go.

Some might say that I am heartless or emotionless for not dropping a single drop, I reckon that whateva happened in the past, I don’t see it as a problem or that it leave a scar in me, I take it more of a learning experience to constantly remind myself that the same mistake WILL NOT be commit twice, and that one do not need to bear a grudge forever against those who hurt you, take it that they are polishing you to face more challenges and that you become stronger after their “treatment”. At the end of the day, is their loss for  hurting you, for losing a such a great friend/confidante/ partner/colleague in you and that eventually one fine day, the precious gem will be picked up by another who cherish you.

So ya, to those who gave up on love, if you despised yourself, you will only attract useless bums. Be strong, keep on going, be confident, be successful and soon, you will find yourself with people of positive vibes.

On a side note, I caught Confessions of a shopaholic, kind of disappointing, overextends it credibility, was expecting more than that, but ya… disappointing I must said.

What is it that is lacking?

“I feel that I am missing something, but yet I can’t fathom on what I am missing on”

This feeling has been lingering in me for the longest time ever, maybe I haven’t found the real ME, or maybe I am too complacent because to date, come to think of it, I can say that I been living a blissful life, to the extent that sometimes I take things for granted, as though things just miraclously happened and fall into place the way I want them to be.

You know the red hot button in me (NOT the latest whateva HOT button from pizza hut) just got pressed, I realised I been living a quarter of a century, and I can’t really graspe for what I am living for, my folks are getting on in age, come one fine day they have had to close down their business and hopefully retired with ample money, and with age getting on, come medical expenses = a huge toll which can stretch their budget (luckily they are adequate very well covered), and my future housing, combined income of my hubby and mine and our kid’s expenses. Is sometimes scary to think of all these, that as one age, the financial burden is so GREAT that it is horrifying just thinking of it alone.

I have a job, parent’s job not hit by recession, family lifestyle do not have to change just cause of bad economy, have my deareast monkey, my closest gfs who stand by me and I am yet still not satisfied, because there is this ONE thing which I can’t seem to fill in the missing puzzle.

Just let it glow, till it overflows

Life treating her good, live each day in peace, no more of the daily drama mama, the tears sobbing soap operas, the quarrels, the stress from the external and totally unrelated people meddling in her life.

And when she looked back, she realised she missed out on alot in the past, spending too much time harping on the impossible, trying to make it possible which in the end caused her much hurt. But ain’t she glad that IS FINALLY OVER!!!!

On a side note, DUN WATCH WATCHMEN!!!! Too much unnecessary plots, draggy and with the lousy seats at GV Bishan caused me much agony through out the 166mins.